Never leave something good to find better, because once you realize you had the best, the best has found better. -- iloveruffag

Pain and Suffering...

“if pain must come, may it come quickly. because i have a life to live, and i need to live it in the best possible. if he has to make a choice, may he make it now. then i will either wait for him or forget him. waiting is painful. forgetting is painful. but not knowing which to do is the worst kind of suffering.”

- Paulo Coelho

I'll never find someone like you...

Moments ago, I was playing Adele's "Someone Like You" in A Major on the piano. I couldn't help but sing the lyrics out loud as I play. Midway through the piece, tears started to trickle down my eye and then it started to flow uncontrollably. I continued my singing and playing until the very last note. My heart and soul realizing every note and words of the song. The pain. I just wish it would just go away. I'll just never find someone like you.

Ang beer na ito o ang pag-ibig mo? (Beer or your love?)

Recently, this song has been one of my favorite videoke songs. This best suits my current situation in love department -- torn between moving and holding on for reconciliation with someone that I loved in the past. But with the revelation I had this afternoon while browsing through Facebook accounts, It struck me so intensely that my ex already has a new partner. Reality bites. It's hard to accept but I have to. I have to start moving on with my life after being stuck in this stage for months. With the song's question "Ano ba talagang mas gusto ko Ang beer na ito O ang pag-ibig mo?" I now choose beer.

Beer -- to drown my sorrows in spirits and to aide me in forgetting the past year of my life. Most probably I'd be out in the upcoming few days to have time for myself and my friends. To have fun and forget. To meet new opportunities. To start anew.

Beer
Itchyworms

Nais kong magpakalasing
Dahil wala ka na
Nakatingin sa salamin
At nag-iisa

Nakatanim pa rin
Ang gumamelang
Binalik mo sa'kin nang tayo'y maghiwalay
Ito'y katulad Ng damdamin ko
Kahit buhusan mo ng beer ayaw pang mamatay

[Pre-chorus]
Giliw, wag mo sanang limutin
Ang mga araw na hindi sana naglaho
Mga anak at bahay nating pinaplano
Lahat ng ito'y nawala Nung iniwan mo 'ko
Kaya ngayon

[Chorus]
Ibuhos na ang beer Sa 'king lalamunan
Upang malunod na ang Puso kong nahihirapan
Bawat patak anong sarap
Ano ba talagang mas gusto ko
Ang beer na ito O ang pag-ibig mo?

Nais kong magpakasabog
Dahil olats ako
Kahit ano hihithitin
Kahit tambutso
Kukuha ako ng Beer at ipapakulo
Sa kaldero't lalanghapin Ang usok nito
Lahat ay aking gagawin
Upang hindi ko na isiping
Nag-iisa na ako

[Repeat chorus]
[Instrumental]
[Repeat pre-chorus]
[Repeat chorus except the last line]

Ang beer na to
Ang beer na to
Ang beer na to o ang...
PAG-IBIG MO!...

Still holding on…

Some things happened unexpectedly recently.
Nothing beyond my control.
It’s the end.

There’s nothing more to do..
but to hope.
hope for the best
and hold on.

And I ask from God.
and from all of the Saints.
the guidance,
patience,
enlightenment
and all that I need
to be strong
to be able to accept
the things that are yet to come.
as things simply rely
from someone else’s words.

This someone, as of now,
unknown,
non-existent,
precious,
and the life
holds the key
that would open the door
the pathway
either to happiness
or eternal grief

When time comes
that the existence is realized
this one is hoping
that the harbinger of the scroll
will shed light
to the passage
of eternal bliss

A new start
A new life

Falling out of love...

What should you do if you think you are falling out of love with your partner?
Find ways to fall in love again with the same person over and over again. It's a cycle. There will come a point in a relationship that you'll get tired of everything. You'll realize that you're starting to lose your feelings towards your partner. With this realization, others tend to seek each other's shortcomings from other people. From thereon, everything would start to fall apart.

Tandaan natin... LOVE is not enough to make a relationship work. You have to fight for it and work for it.


How do you forget the person you once truly loved?
You just can't. Unless you never really loved the person. Hindi mawawala feelings mo towards that person... mababawasan, but it'll never totally fade out...

Hahaha. ala Dr. Love ba?!?

Duguang puso ni Ryan

Originally posted last Jan 17, '08 12:25 AM on my Multiply blog

Ito ang duguang puso ni Ryan. Nilapastangan ng isang taong dati-rati'y itinuring itong kanyang pangalawang tahanan. Tumitibok dati ito ng tama. lub-dub. lub-dub. Pero ngayon, pinili nyang lumayo upang kilalanin ang kanyang sarili. Hindi man lang nya naisip na ang paglisang ito ay nagdulot ng pagkukulang na naging dahilanan ng pag-dugo nito at kakulangan sa pagpintig. dub-dub na lang. wala nag love-dub love-dub.

Hindi ko alam kung babalik pa sya sa tahanang ito. Sana. Maghihintay ako. Ngunit kung may balak pa sya bumalik, sana hindi pa huli ang lahat. Sana may mabalikan pa sya. Sana may tibok pa ang pusong ito.

Ilang linggo itong unti-unting tinusok. Masakit man, hindi ko pa rin ganon karamdam dahil katabi ko sya. mabutas mang ang isang ventricle, naroroon sya para ituloy ang pagtibok nito. Ngunit ngayon, tuluyan nang tumagos sa pusong ito ang pako. Hindi ko masabi kung gaano kalalim. At kung kailan nangyari ito, dun pa nya piniling umalis

Idinaan sa mabuting pakiusap na ayusin ang mga bagay at idaan sa maayos na paraan. Mero pinili pa rin nya ang masaklap na paglisan. Ginawa ang lahat ngunit mas pinili nyang lumayo. Ang bagay ay inaayos ng magkasama hindi ng mag-isa. Marapat na magtulungan ang isa't-isa. Ngunit mas pinili nya na tahakin ang mga problema ng mag-isa. ng wala ang kabiyak.

Maghihintay ako hanggan sa huling tibok ng kalahating pusong ito. Maghihitay ako hanggan sa huling patak ng dugo na dadaloy at tutulo dito. Sana ay bumalik ka ng mabuo ulit ito. Huwag mong hintayin ang pagkakataon na tuyo na ito at huli ng lahat.

Too Much Love Will Kill You

Isang patama sa akin ng driver ng truck na ito... "Keep distance, too much love will kill you." Kitang-kita naman. It says it all. Wag paikutin ng sobra ang mundo sa taong iniibig. Konting distancia lang amigo. Else, hindi maiiwasan ang sobrang pagkapraning at pagiging seloso.

Naaalala ko tuloy yung 'Road Less Travelled' ni Scott Peck and 'Language of Love' ni Gary Chapman. I won't discuss it here coz magiging nobela nanaman ito. Thanks Cy at ako ang naalala mo ko nang nakita mo to. I'll take ur advice na mag-iwan naman ako ng konti para sa sarili ko at baka sa huli, ako ang maiwang nasaktan at lumuluha... =(