Never leave something good to find better, because once you realize you had the best, the best has found better. -- iloveruffag

Pain and Suffering...

“if pain must come, may it come quickly. because i have a life to live, and i need to live it in the best possible. if he has to make a choice, may he make it now. then i will either wait for him or forget him. waiting is painful. forgetting is painful. but not knowing which to do is the worst kind of suffering.”

- Paulo Coelho

I'll never find someone like you...

Moments ago, I was playing Adele's "Someone Like You" in A Major on the piano. I couldn't help but sing the lyrics out loud as I play. Midway through the piece, tears started to trickle down my eye and then it started to flow uncontrollably. I continued my singing and playing until the very last note. My heart and soul realizing every note and words of the song. The pain. I just wish it would just go away. I'll just never find someone like you.

Many Fish in the Sea

In the past few weeks, in response to the my attitude towards my recently concluded relationship, my friends have been telling me to snap out of it as there are "may fish in the ocean". Again, it's all a matter of perspective. There may be many fish in the ocean but once you get the catch of the day, you shouldn't let go of it. There's a possibility of reeling in something bigger or better, but there's no assurance on that. There's a chance of hooking up something bigger but your line can't suppport the catch, cutting off the line and damaging the reel permanently. It's a matter of being happy and content with what you have.

In the end of relationships, oftentimes we hear our friends tell us that cliche. I'd agree to the reality that definitely, there are things better out there in the vast ocean. Something I've learned in the past. Relationships don't work because of that mentality. Instead of being content with what you have, people always strive for someone better. Instead of resolving conflicts, the tendency is for other people to easily give up and seek someone else. Someone better. A natural tendency perhaps. People oftentimes oversee that they already have the perfect catch -- the best catch they could possibly have in their lifetime. And upon realization that they've let go of it, regret sinks in. Despair and frustration as result of that abrupt decision. Frustrated and hoping that our line hooks the same fish again.

Perspective wise, we may be the fisherman, or we may be the fish.

An Online Quiz...

And since I'm in the mood to answer questions, I'd answer all these though this reblog shouldn't work this way. haha.

1: What was the first thing you did in 2012? Fireworks Photography. Will post my shots in the upcoming days
2: Do you think we will really all die this year? I hope so. haha. Just kidding. We have to be optimistic this year.
3: What was the best thing that happened to you in 2011? Love.
4: What was the worst? Demise of my beloved grandmother, failing health, and the recent break-up
5: How many people did you kiss in 2011? Three - My Mom, My Grandma, and a special someone
6: What do you want to happen this year? To finally find the right person for me.
7: What are your 2012 goals? To be a better person in all aspects of life.
8: Tell us something that we might find surprising about your 2011. Uhm. I'd rather not tell. hihihi.
9: What do you want to happen this year that didn’t happen last year? Visit my dream destinations (except for the El Nido / PP Trip).
10: Have you made any new friends yet this year? Tons in just a matter of days through friends.
11: Is there any body modifications planned for this year? (i.e. piercings, tattoos, hair dye, etc). Hair dye, new haircut
12: What was the first thing you bought in 2012? Airline tickets to Boracay, Tagbilaran, and Cebu. Woot!
13: What did you hate about 2011? Hurt, pain, confusion, death, goodbyes.
14: What was the most interesting thing to happen this year so far? Secret! It's brewing up!
15: Tell us a secret about 2011. Uhm, It'll no longer be a secret if I post it here. lolz. -

Personal
16: What is your name, age and location? Ryan, 27, Ciudad de Quezon
17: What is your hair colour? Naturally dark brown but I dye it black
18: What is your eye colour? Brown
19: What is your heritage? Fil-Span-Chi. But the latter two are recessive. haha.
20: Are you single this year? I hope not.
21: Do you want to be in a relationship this year? Definitely.
22: How many siblings do you have? Two
23: Will you be having any more? I wish.
24: Any children of your own? One
25: Will you be getting married this year? Uhm... I hope so.
26: What is your sexual orientation? hahaha.
27: What is your height? 5'6"
28: What is your weight? From 112lbs last year, I'm now 125 lbs. huhuhu -

TMI
29: Have you had sex so far this year? No.
30: How many times did you have sex last year?
31: Do you shave your neither regions? Trim. (talagang sinagot? haha)
32: What’s your dirtiest secret? It's dirty! LOL.
33: Do you shower every day? Definitely! twice a day!
34: Do you masturbate? It's against the religious principles.
35: Do you drink/smoke? Drink no mas. Fumar, si!
36: Do you do drugs? Nope.
37: Did you do anything illegal in 2011 and if so, what was it? Nah. Goodboy here.
38: What about 2012? Nah
39: How long can you just kiss until your hands start to wander? 1 second. LOL.

2012. Day 2.

Started the year by having a blast with my inner self. I heeded a friend's advice to try having a personal time alone and boy, he's right! I enjoyed every single moment of it. After work, I had a massage at a spa near the office. Wasn't expecting that it'll be the best massage that I've had so far in my life. And to those with malicious minds, it's a clean massage. No hanky panky. I got relieved of physical stress that have been contained in my system in weeks. The tension eased and my clouded and distracted mind seemed to have relaxed and cleared up.

I decided to treat myself to dinner. Nothing fancy as I was craving for one of my recent comfort food - Special lamb chelo kabab and a tall glass of Watermelon shake at Kabab Korner. I devoured everything in less than five minutes. Talk about my increasing apetite. I then spent the rest of evening watching NBA at the same restaurant. Would you believe... NBA. haha. 'twas fun.

I was actually planning to have crepe for desert at the nearby crepe store but decided to go home instead. Kinda excited to start reading the e-book I downloaded last night -- "The hunger games". Heard that it's quite similar to the epic Battle Royale flick. Will start flipping through the pages once I'm done listing the stuff that I'm gonna buy this weekend for the upcoming beachscapade. I'm really looking forward to that trip with my bessie and a friend. I'm happy that I was able to book the flight and make the necessary resort reservation for that trip. Chinese New Year in Boracay!!! Woot! Had to cancel the Maldives trip on the same date for this. I'd prefer to have friends around than being alone on a beach island on a foreign land with no one to talk to. Though that would be a good idea for having a sound conversation with my inner self. Soon.

Things to do this 2012 (part 1)

1. Start serious blogging. I will create new blogs to reclaim the composition skills that I have had way back before. My writing skills have become quite stagnant for some time now. vocabulary and grammar techniques have deteriorated over time. I will have to rebuild my reputation on philosophical takes on current trends and humor in the Philippine society. LOLz. Applied philosophy and sociology once again in a non-academic approach.

2. Learn how to sing. I love singing but the microphone and songs don’t love me back. This translates to more videoke sessions and perhaps hiring a professional vocal coach. I’ve had enough being off tune. I have to sound better than screeching cats.

3. Improve on my piano playing and song arrangement skills. Gotta have my keyboards fixed as soon as possible.

4. Start diving. PADI beware.

5. Visit the places that I’ve been dying to visit. Obviously, beaches - Maldives, Amanpulo, Carribean, Alaska, South America. I need to figure out how to earn enough dough to visit these places.

6. Indulge myself in photography. I know I’m a lot better than those aspiring self-acclaimed photographers out there. This is the year for me to get back in the scene. I totally gave up photography in 2011. Will splurge on equipments again this year. Will focus on landscape and underwater photography this time

7. Quit smoking. Simply put. I was able to successfully quit drinking in 2011. I have to have the inner strength to overcome smoking this year.

8. Gain weight and tone my body. Having 6-pack abs isn’t enough. I need to gain weight. more mass. i want to be beyond toned. Welcome me back with open arms once again Gold’s gym. We’ll see each other more frequent this time.

9. Read. read. Read. Enough with the classics. I will try another literary genre. Enough with online games. time to immerse myself in literature this year.

10. Participate in social work. I want to do my part in social responsibility. I have to figure out a way to contribute without risking my fragile health.

11. Change my image. I’m planning to dispose of my whole wardrobe and totally change my style for this year. Let’s see. I have tons of new friends in the fashion industry to help me out on this matter. I want to project a fun, laid-back yuppie image. I’m also planning of changing my hairstyle this year.

12. Pamper myself. More spa. spa. spa. spa. I’ve been stressed most of 2011 in all aspects of life. It’s time to recover from all these things. I’ve gotta pamper myself! yeah boi!

13. Start my business. It’s been in the drawing board in the past few years but haven’t gotten a chance to actually put it into work. Gotta make wise investments and get that money moving to sustain the things that I wanna do in 2012.

14. Learn a new sport. Not that I’m tired of swimming, bowling, soccer, and table tennis. I’ve gotta develop physical endurance. Thinking of biking.

That’s it for now. Sandman’s knocking at my door. Goodnight world and happy new year.

Rico...

"Ang love parang Rico... Minsan Blanco, minsan Puno. At minsan, hindi mo lang alam, Yan na pala..."

Food Trip Destination: Baang Coffee

An early evening night out with my Friends at Baang Coffee Tomas Morato. Ordered my usual favorites: Monte Cristo Sandwich and Chicken Cordon Bleu (c/o Pow), accompanied by a Tall order of Death by Chocolate and a slice of Banapple pie for dessert. 

 Monte Cristo Sandwich. 

 Chicken Cordon Bleu 

Banapple Pie 

Corporate Policies

What if your office issues new corporate policies such as these? Insane indeed! For the win! Click on the image above to view the whole image. 

Lovers In Pares

Last night, my partner and I were discussing over phone on our plans for our monthsary meet up.

Ryan: San tayo sa Wednesday?
Burrby: Ikaw...
Ryan: Hmm. sa pares na lang.
Burrby: ...
Ryan: Alam mo kung bakit?
Burrby: Bakit?
Ryan: Para masabing "Lovers in Pares" tayo.
Burrby: *uncontrollable laughter*


Corny to the nth level. One of those spontaneous hirits from yours truly. But in fairness, bumenta sa kanya.

Photo credit to djbrixx.

Bitter Ocampo

Bitter Ocampo -- A filipino gay linggo referring to sour graping people. Derived from a popular actor's name (Deither Ocampo).

While browsing PinoyExchange.com earlier, I stumbled upon this particular image on discussion thread. A literal visual interpretation of Bitter Ocampo. Diether Ocampo on the body of a bitter melon (Momordica Charantia Linn). ROFLMAO.

Credit goes to the owner of this image.

100 ways to say Fuck You

Funny that one of the first few words that we learn from foreign languages are cuss words aside from the usual "Hello", "Good Morning", "Good Evening", and  "I Love You". I stumbled upon this particular image while I was blog hopping. This is the ultimate guide!

But I beg to disagree with the Filipino translation. It should not equate to Putang Ina. Son of a Bitch may be a more appropriate english translation for Putang Ina. But the heck! I’m fine with it. It sounds better than Kantutin Kita and it sounds more "malutong" .

It's kinda weird that Putang Ina is highlighted compared to the other translations. Perhaps it's widely used across the globe as Filipinos are in the every corner of this planet.

Coron, Palawan

Here’s a postcard I shot from our Coron trip last year. I fell in love with natural beauty of the place the first time I got there — breathtaking views, virgin white sand beaches, clear water, fresh seafood, friendly people, watersports, and more!

I’m planning to visit the Calamian group of islands in northern palawan again this May. I hope that the weather will cooperate this time. Last year, we were stuck in the middle of Siete Picados during a storm. Traumatic. Tara! Byahe na!

Why do cars always break down on flyovers or in narrow roads?

That's one of the mysteries that I have been trying to figure out. Often times, these traffic incidents cause major traffic -- a terrible headache for motorists. Perhaps it's just a series of coincidental events or there may be a paranormal explanation for that. What do you think? Why on flyovers, in narrow roads, or in bottleneck areas?!?

“Para kang ipis. Natatakot ako sa tuwing lilipad ka.”

En route back to GMA from the ingress at SMX, 2ns tuned in to LSFM as a true kapuso. And Papa Dan's on air (whatta heck of a show. so funny)! Heard the aforementioned quote in tonight's broadcast.

Papa Dan: Ano ang sasabihin mo kay Michelle ngayong alam mong lilipad pala sya paalis ng bansa?

Guy1: *moment of silence*

Papa Dan: Hindi ka marunong sumagot eh. *states the quote above*

Classic! ROFTL! Sobrang bumenta sa akin that I can't stop laughing at that moment. I'm gonna use this hirit one of these days.

Paranormal encounter in the house

I've had another freaky paranormal encounter. This time, inside our beloved home.

Last night was Black Saturday. The rest of the household went ahead to the chapel to hear the easter vigil mass. I was left alone at as I had some urgent matters to attend to. After finishing what I need to do, I took a quick shower and hurriedly dressed up to be on time for the mass.

I was walking down the stairs, the door of my grandmother's room slowly opened with this eerie squeak. I stopped for a moment to assess if there's a burglar in the house. But apparently, there's none. I started walking down again then suddenly, the door slammed close. I went to the kitchen to drink a glass of water then had the guts to check out the room. There's no one inside. The windows are closed thus the wind couldn't be the culprit. Freaked out, I immediately left the house.

It didn't end there. When I was locking the front gate, I heard the door of my parent's room open and close similar to what happened earlier. I stood still. It couldn't be the wind as the windows of my parents room are all closed. It couldn't be a household member or a burglar as there's no one inside the house. So what else could it be?

I told my siblings about this while ago only to confirm that they also had the similar encounters within the house.

Freaky

on security checkpoints

Be it in malls, the MRT, or any establishments, I still can't dig the purpose of the security checkpoints. The security guards are being paid for merely opening the bags of the masses and making dutdot the stuff inside the back with their magical wands ala harry potter -- "wingardium leviosa". As if they are actually checking the items inside the bags. Restricted items won't float and reveal themselves just by poking random items inside the bag with the stick.
Kakainis.

Photo credit: http://www.life.com/image/1537501

on coffee shops...

Here at Coffeebean now with my siblings for a little bonding moment.
Just a random thought: I can't still get the point why people are hooked up buying overpriced coffee. More than a hundred bucks for a cup of coffee? For me that's impractical. I'd rather spend that amount on food or other necessities. But the heck. That's their money. Perhaps I'm just not a fan of coffee.

Photo Credit: http://wwff.wordpress.com/

B.O.R.E.D

Stuck at home this holy week. Aside from fulfilling my holy obligations and entertaining a few work-related calls and SMS, I have nothing else to do. I might as well spend the free time that I have in organizing all my stuff -- my closet, book collection, mp3 collection, and photography portfolio.

Just in case this obsessive-compulsiveness adrenaline runs off my veins, I have plans of baking cookies (yes! after more than a year of not baking anything at all!), play the piano or have a movie marathon.

There's this strong urge within me to go out with my friends but good luck with that! I doubt it if there's an establishment where I could possibly hang out. Definitely, I'm stuck here.